To those not in the know.... and i know that means most of u guys out there....

Well lets be honest here... Im Jain.... for people who dont know what that is lemme try to explain in a nutshell..... we believe in the philosophy of ahimsa or non violence....we are strict vegetarians who allow the consumption of milk and follow the teachings of mahavira and the other teerthankaras who we believed achieved a state of all knowingness or moksha....
Now that, thats outta the way i was just wondereing whether we should follow the teachings of these revered people without ever making anychanges to them....
Im not an atheist but i am a skeptic at believing that a group of people or one person would know everthing and never make a mistake... maybe that is possible and maybe not bu thte thing is that if it isnt then why dont we change our beliefs every so often... i mean allow our beleiefs to change with the times....
i mean human civilisation atleast the bulk of it has been advanced by observation and optimization....
even astrology for that matter which in my honest opinion is the summarisation of the generalised observation of millions of people who inhabited this earth before us coalesced into one dramatic unveiling.....
so is it ok to not change, is it ok to modify our beliefs accordingly or should we continue along the path shown to us even though our minds and hearts may tell us otherwise....
this eternal debate may rage on and i will express my views on this from time to time....
Till Next Time...
See-Ya!!!

i donno maybe im just a romantic of heart or completely sold on the westernized notion of candyfloss romance they sell through their tv shows and movies but all i know is that i too want just one slow dance with my girl.... not just one maybe a lot but yeah a slow dance where i am close to her and she is close to me... we are swaying to the slow beats of the music and life becomes more and more perfect in just that one heartbeat....
just a thought through my head....
Till Next Time
See-Ya!!!

A thought just passed through my mind and i decided to put it down...
well and one thing is for sure if i start trying to update this everytime something tumultuous happens in my life then i will be stuck to the lappy for often than not...
but as i had promised i will be more regular in my updates...
news is that things are now sorted out between my best friend n i so things are good in that respect for now atleast....
well my friends asking me to get back to studying will update properly when i reach the room....
Till Next Time...
See-Ya!!!

good morning....lazy sunday saw me comment almost nothing about my life.... well nothing much happened till last night so there was nothing about my life to bore u with... and i really didnt want to come up with philosophies just like that u know.... well now then you must be wondering what the hell happened....umm ok i have this best friend ok lets call her hazel..... and hazel has this other best friend george.....ok so what the argument was about is that hazel always jumps when george asks her to do anything.... and i mean anything....and to me that seems kinda strange....
well i will explain why...
ok maybe not now... i still need a second opinion on what im feeling so will get back to u asap.....
Till next time
See-Ya!!!

heylo again....
ssup....
well did u guys ever wonder that we have all always heard of the mundane mondays but ever thought that a glorious saturday part of the fabled weekend could ever be just that mundane well i guess i just completed the unimaginable and made my saturday morning mundane...
how pray u may ask.... well all i can say to someone asking such an inane question try getting up at 5 in the morning on a sat morning to do journals and u will realise.....
me scooting off to my journal again...
catch u soon....
Till next time
See-Ya!!!

Well, well well… its been a long time since I have posted anything on the blog…heck its been a long time since I have even opened the damn thing let alone post on it… well you might be wondering why the heck I might be calling my own blog a damn thing… for no other reason than I can of course what other reason is there o do things in this world… I use this blog merely as a place to express my self so im gona do just that… recently I was passing through a very confusing part of my life in more ways than one and I didn’t know how to express myself completely so I just let it be… many a times I had started writing a post just to think to my self again why whats the point….. yeah I tend to do that a lot… lots of those things which people consider normal, I consider increasingly cumbersome and don’t end up doing them… gonna start remedying them starting well a few days back… baby steps I know but atleast finally im getting over procrastinating over it all the time…
Well I know this post hasn’t had any single thread of thought flow or anything constructive to say or maybe nothing at all made any sense to you because I kept jumping from one thing to another but from now on im gonna get much more regular in my posts…I know I know I have made that promise a coupla times and very unlike me broken it everytime but seeing as in I have already started inculcating the changes I wanted to see in my life one at a time maybe this one will become easier too….
So till nex time…
(which maybe very soon or very far)
See-Ya!!!

I dont know whats wrong with me since the last few days....
work wise etc etc im fine perfect.... not toooooo tense bout my maths result which is gonna come out today cause im confident of passing it...
but in the other department.... yeah u know the one im talking about the one which involves the special someone in my life i think i have been f**kin up a lil more than my usual screw ups....
not only did i shout at her day before the day before yesterday(all together by mistake cause i was talkin to her n shouting at someone else n she got caught in the crossfire)... i ended up irritating her about her work on sunday.... n then yesterday i freaked her out again....
god i feel so stupid when something like this happens....
i mean lemme explain... what happened was that i was talkin to her about my day on sunday...
i told her that my friends n i had played truth or dare....in that i chose truth.... they asked me that if i had to say right now would i marry her...i took a while to think n said yes....
when i told her this she understandably freaked... but i think she did because she took it in the wrong way..... what was meant by my yes was not that yes i wanna marry her right away but that she is special enough to me to try and find whatever way i can to make this work for us.... its trying to be more an expression of love rather than forcing commitment on to her.... i mean i know what it sounds like but how do i explain it i just like her so much that i wanna give this a fighting chance no matter what.... thats what i meant by yes...
yes to the fact that if i have to take a tough call for this to work then i will...
yes to the fact that i love her enough to say it loud n proud in front of my friends...
yes to wanting to hold her close for a long long time to come...
yes to doing whatever i can for her...
yes to looking out for her happiness as one of the priorities in my life...
yes to sooth all the naysayers in this world...
yes to mean it every single time i tell her i love you...
yes to not stop meaning it till we dont mean anything anymore....
yes to give her the freedom to choose her happiness with me and not be compelled into it...
and finally and to me most importantly...
yes to letting her know that every single time i say 'i love you', i mean it with every syallable entwined in it, with every letter that it is made up of, with every breath it takes to say it and i will continue to mean it in the same way for as long as she lets me...
thats all i meant by yes to the question my friends asked me....
i still stand by what i said and i just hope she now better understands my meaning behind it instead of the simple yes in the not too simple notion of marrige as put forth by my friends...
Till Next Time...
See-Ya!!!

Life has a weird way of showing its cruelest colors,
it doesnt wait for the best time to strike or the weakest moment, it just keeps at it in the hope that one of its blows will be fatal, that one blow to bring even the prize fighter to his knees,
this year life has been like this in every sense, studies i got screwed over despite working my ass off, love life was smooth sailing till life decided to toss a rock the size of king kong in its way,
money has always been tight but got tighter still, disappointments rose, the poison is too muh for me, i need an outlet now... just one before the bile will rise above what i can handle and it will kill be or leave me stronger still, cant take much more of this done even want too, life has become too hard and today when the final hope has been sbatched from me all that i can hope is that the old adage that the night is darkest before dawn comes true, because the last light at the end of a never ending tunnel seems to have been taken away, my heart clutches onto the futile hipe that its just another train passing by on the tracks of life.... but it also says this tunnel will surely end... light will strike my head again... stream down my face again....n fill it with happiness to displace all the hurt....it just hopes that it may be my angel but in casr it isnt all it knows is that a part of it is gone till it comes back again......